2007

Let's see.I busted a total of $17.65 on taxi fare to get home from the shitty town area when the trains have stopped its operation. $17.65. I could have gotten myself an album with that sum of money. Ack! So, fellow friends, what's so good about the year 2007? I was spending the first couple of hours of 2007 worrying sick about my trip back home. This is discerning.Anyway, let's shift our attention back a little while ago, while we were still in the good old 2006.In brevity, due to my aching-as-hell back, I shall post in point form:- Bought the handy many pocketed Samuel and Kevin pants as recommended by Jaspas Himself.- Went to the Istana Open House, which consisted of many grass pastures and over-concerned policemen. *thoughtcrime*- Done the final stoning session at The Magic Hall.- My...

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Wisdom

When law and duty are one, united by religion, you never become fully conscious, fully aware of yourself. You are always a little less than an individual. - Frank Herbert.He who can destroy a thing has the real control over it. - Frank Herbert.A process cannot be understood by stopping it. Understanding must move with the flow of the process, must join it and flow with it. - Frank Herbe...

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I don't wanna be right

I kind of love the smell of cigarette smoke. But it's only one specific kind. I do NOT love cigarette smoke when itis being expelled near megets into upholstery and ruins it foreveris on someone's breathis anywhere near children, and I think that people who smoke in kids' breathing space should be slapped around and then forced to breath gasoline fumes until they kill off their three remaining brain cells--but that's neither here nor thereThe kind of cigarette smoke that I like is the faint suggestion kind. When I was little I associated it with carnivals, which were pretty much my favorite. That was back when I could ride scary rides and be upside down without prayiing for death.Now it makes me think of London and Paris and Rome and big European cities in the summertime. One whiff and I'm...

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Best birth control ever

Last night I watched the babies while Jenny and Ed spent a night at the Hines Mansion Bed & Breakfast. I was happy to help out, but by the time they came home I was SO very ready to be done. And I don't know why anyone would actually sign up to be a single parent. Ever. I mean, I realize that life happens, and nobody had ever be thinking that if my husband turns out to be a creep that I won't leave his trash because I so will, and I'll take all his money, even if I have three sets of twins and some of them are in wheelchairs. It's just that not once during those 18 hours did I think, "Hey, you know what would be cool? If EVERY DAY were just like this."I got off relatively easy, though. The kids went to bed nicely, Ethan only woke up screaming once at 3:00am, and then he slept until 7am....

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The Christmas with the nesting

Santa was so very good to me this year. Can anyone else tell how excited I am to be getting back into my own place where I can do things like cook and put up decorations? Here were some of my Christmas presents, which caused much gasping for joy (following by coughing and wheezing) by the tree.Then with some Christmas money from my grandma (and my own dwindling resources) I bought myself some more presents. I think I'm going through some mad fling of financial recklessness because I know I'm going to have to knuckle down to an unforgiving budget very, very soon. Then I will at least be able to read about lovely foods while eating my ramen noodles.For...

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Auf Wiedersehen, 2006.

With only less than 5 days left for the year 2006, I shall dedicate this post to the Best of 2006 as a swansong, before we usher in the year of 2007, of which I will be facing the Apocalyptic (or Anally-Annoying) A Levels. 2006 has been a good and bad year for me, good because 06/06/06 is in the year 2006, bad due to me being stuck in a class filled with narrow minded buffoons. Now, as you, my audience, shout from the seats, demanding the prompt announcement of the BillBoard 2006! [drumroll please!] It's extremely biased, so people of the faint-hearted, you might want to shun away from this dreary post. Firstly, as a self-proclaimed professional metal-listener such as yours truly, I shall give you my opinion of what is good in the 2006 in terms of metal and all its paraphernalia....

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Happy Boxing Day

Here's a quick update before I go lie down and moan weakly.Christmas Highlights:Felt lots better on Christmas Eve and Christmas DayWatched Savvy & Baby Ethan get all excited about their presentsWonderful food, including macadamia nut pancakes Christmas morning, with strawberries and whipped creamBeautiful sunny dayEveryone got along, mostlyTalked to coolboy on the phone (missionaries only call home twice a year). He sounds good, but worried us when he said he'd been living on potato chips and soda.Drove around to look at Christmas lightsEveryone liked their Christmas presentsI especially liked my Christmas presents, because they were great....

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This creature is stirring

Yay, the Internet is working! I'm on Ed's computer and it's Christmas Eve. I hope everyone is well and happy and is with family and/or friends.This morning we drove up to Temple Square to watch Music and the Spoken Word. My Dad pretty much has to see it when he's here. Watching today I was struck by the difference between this concert and their big huge Christmas concert, which I saw on Dec 16th.The biggest difference was Sissel. She was the guest performer and I cannot say enough about her. She was amazing--her voice, her clothes, the way she just looks like the nicest, most talented person in the world who would just come to your house and...

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On the 12th Day of Christmas...

For magicians/flourishers.On the 12th day of Christmas, Jesus gave to me 12 half-dollar coins a-coinroll 11 spongeballs a-vanishing 10 stage magicians 9 sets of linking rings a-clinking 8 people worshipping David Blaine 7 sets of cups and balls 6 pairs of Dan and Dave. 5 threads of Invisible Thread 4 Mockingbirds a-owning 3 Joe porper clips 2 dozens of Jerry Nuggets a-happy a stash of Ellusionist tapes! For metalheads! On the 12th day of Christmas, Satan gave to me 12 Slipknot fans a-moshing 11 Nymphetamines addictions 10 Pentagrams a-hanging 9 lives for Jon Notivdet 8 Kerry Kings a-riffing 7 Progenies of the Apocalyse 6(66) Mothers from the North 5 Rammstein fans a-singing Sonne 4 Those who Died 3 Parents a-fleeing. 2 dead Mayhem members a whole lot of headbanging.I...

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Finally.

I could faintly remember myself visually how epic would it be if Dragonlance were converted into films, when I was reading them back at Secondary 2 or so. Now, my wish is fulfilled.Let the war of Krynn wage on!Click here for more. And more! Now, I need to re-read the first Chronicle installment, Autumn Twilight.Ahhhh! *battle cry* I am hyp...

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because it's better if these things can happen all at one

I think I have the flu. I woke up yesterday morning with knives in my throat. Also I ache everywhere. I knew I should've got a flu shot. I feel kind of like the blonde in the joke who went to visit her doctor because no matter where she touched herself it hurt. She had a broken finger. I don't, though. I'm just ill and dying.And I don't have a luxurious Queen-sized bed with Egyptian cotton sheets and a down comforter anymore because my parents are using it now that they're in town. So I slept (fitfully) on the couch last night. At 6:30am (also known as 15 minutes after I finally fell asleep) the children woke up and started poking their fingers into my mouth and slamming Charlie & Lola books in my face. I staggered into their vacated bedroom and slept in Savannah's bed for a couple more...

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Der Metzgermeister

No shit, friends.I found the email address of Armin Meiwes aka Der Metzgermeister and I have added him into my MSN contacts.He might be able to log in from prison one fine day, and I might say to him, "Hallo! Wie bist du? Guten? Gehabt deine Mittagessen? Habe ein Guten Tag, mein Freund." Hahaha.Bleh. Pardon my lack of intelligence in this post. L...

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The walls are closing in

My computer has died. Again. With the same errors as before--the ones that hiss and spit at me. I spent 2 hours on the phone today with Mark, a Dell rep, and thanks to him my computer will no longer do anything.So now I'm supposed to wait while he sends me some stuff in the mail. And I am computerless. I hope I can co...

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Close to Utopia.

It has been raining continously for the last 48 hours here, and it is still so at this point of time. Cherishing this perfect moment of chilly weather and the tranquil sounds of the falling raindrops, I sat on my bed with a book by De Sade.Listening to only the raindrops, the mere rustle of the pages, and the occasional humming of the electric fan, devoid of parental nags altogether.This is almost bliss.I just need to be in Berlin for everything to be detail-perfect.Anyway, reading De Sade in one sitting for 3 hours can drive you insane and dizzy. Trust me.Blissed,L...

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Feminist Goddess of Dooooom

As lots of you probably know, I'm a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. This makes me a Mormon. I do not have horns, though, because I had them filed down in a special Mormon ceremony.I also consider myself to be a feminist. It didn't really occur to me to think of this as a controversial thing. I thought everyone with any sense was a feminist to some degree. Even though it takes in a lot of different movements and opinions (such as ecofeminism, lesbian feminism, anarcha-feminism, and fat feminism) here is what the basic concept of feminism is:Belief in the social, political, and economic equality of the sexes (American Heritage Dictionary)The thought and actions of people who want to make women's (legal, political, social, etc.) rights equal to those of men (Kellerman...

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Quiz-o-mania.

LLuxuriousIIndustriousNNeglectedGGoofyNNeatEEntertainingMMeekEEnchantingSSensationalIInsaneSSpecialName / Username:Name Acronym GeneratorFrom Go-Quiz.comSo true. Ha...

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Dragonlance

I was flipping the family photo albums the other day and found a picture of me holding on to a David Gemmell book, I went, "Whoo! I didn't know I read that kinda shit when I was that young!" I think I was only 12 at that point of time.It's pretty amazing that I used to be such a bookwhore, I remember reading the entire Raymond E. Feist's Empire Trilogy in the span of a week or two. And, the entire Dragonlance "Chronicles Series" in a month or so. Installments of Lemony Snicket's Series of Unfortunate Events could be done in a single day. Plus stuff like Orson Scott Card and Clive Barker as well. Geez, I am a bookwhore.Unfortunately, when internet became a common commodity of today's world, much of my once-to-be reading time has been converted to Youtube-whoring/MSN mass convo time. I feel...

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Hahaha.

On the twelfth day of Christmas, lingnemesis sent to me...Twelve prisons drummingEleven slytherins pipingTen gholas a-stoningNine funerals flourishingEight suicides a-readingSeven genetics a-writingSix perversions a-killingFive di-i-i-irty jokesFour weird thingsThree fallen angelsTwo singing vocals...and a slash in a numerology.Get your own Twelve Days:What. The. Holy. Fuck. Does. This. Supposed. To. Mean? Otherwise, Haha...

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Change

I have switched to Blogger Beta! I wonder what new services they'd offer with this. All I see is the addition of tags. Blogger should learn from LiveJournal. Sigh.Otherwise, today has been a rather dry day of me slouched over the laptop and listening to Marilyn Manson all day long, whilst my family went into a frenzy over the new Sony Bravia Flatscreen TV. What's the use of a good TV when you don't have cable TV? Sigh #2. Ah wells.Sigh #3. Voelkerball still isn't here yet, look at the fucking date, censorship board, it's the 16th December, almost a month in and not a single copy of it is out. So very efficient huh? Quick! Or I'll launch a Molotov Cocktail at your headquarters.Oh, Ren Hui came back from Japan yesterday, and I cannot wait to ressume our James Bond gatherings.I shall not remind...

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Happy Birthday to Cicada!

It's Cicada's birthday today. I won't tell you how old she's turning, but I will tell you what my present to her is: I'm going get some of her eggs frozen. Shhh! Don't tell her! Now that I have a job, I can do things like that. I hope she likes it.I would like to tell a great story about Cicada on this, the day of her birth, but there are just too many.There was the road trip we took to California to hang out with Amyjane where we almost ran out of gas in the middle of the Mojave desert. That was not good.Then there was the road trip we took to the Utah Shakespearean Festival. That was good, and we didn't run out of gas at all.Also there was the time where she edited my dissertation, which I hold directly responsible for its kicking trash.There was the time where she wore the really great...

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Lost Highway

Nevermind the often uneeded clips of sex in the film I have just watched - Lost Highway, it definitedly qualified itself into my Top 10 favourite films chart.With a theme that is strikingly similar to Fight Club, that whole psychologyical fugue thing, yes, I wasn't too blown away or anything, with me realising the whole plot within the first hour of the film. Nonetheless, I must say the use of the Mystery Man and the wooden house have successfully made an ever-lasting impression on the viewers, and they are smartly-used as well. Nice.The appearances of Marilyn Manson and Twiggy Ramirez were quite a pleasant surprise, so were the sound clips of songs from Marilyn Manson and Rammstein. Heirate Mich fit in just perfectly man, hahaha!Thanks Kev for it, lastly!Geez, now I want to watch more Lynch...

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Flattered Part 2

Hahaha. So, I am a late bloomer, aren't I? I shall wait then, H...

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I feel very much flattered.

lingnemesis is poisonous! Induce vomitting if ingested.NPOISONUsername:From Go-Quiz.comHeh. ...

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Hilarious Ghetto KKK

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I have to go be a civilian now?

I spent a few hours this afternoon in the BYU Bookstore. I went to pick up my dad's Christmas gift and ended up browsing around. I love that place. I love its bargain book bins and its French editions of Harry Potter and its international chocolates. I especially love it right now when everything in the store is an additional 20% off because of Christmas. Also I love that all the actual students are stressed out over finals and I'm not. I get to glide through the panic, smiling benevolently, even at this one girl I saw today who was dressed in a long blue t-shirt, a black cow-girl-looking vest, a belt, a white knee-length peasant skirt, black leggings (curse you black leggings!!) and thick black Ugg-like boots. Despite her clothing I really felt like I want her to succeed both in her studies...

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I scream, you scream

Yesterday I took Savannah for a girl's afternoon out. We went to the library, ran errands, and then got ice cream at the Creamery on 9th. She picked green ice cream. Lucky for me, she was not in her Kill Everyone with Her Mind Powers and then Cry and Moan Because they Didn't Die the Exact Right Way She Wanted mood. She was in a good mood, the kind where she walks around saying things like "Thank you so much" and "Your shoes are very beautiful."I caught the girl in the background with the laptop smiling/chuckling a few times, like when Savannah gave out her trademarked banshee shriek, and when she started monitoring the soda fountain in order...

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The absence of Völkerball

The absence of Völkerball has yielded me getting into other german acts. *blames the Singapore fucking slow Censorship*I was bored one day, so I went around for new music to listen to. Oomph! rocked! Augen Auf has the Rammstein's ferocity and I must say they are easily comparable to Rammstein. =D Looks like I have some alternatives now. That song reminds of Sonne, due to the counting part. Heh.Nice. Nice.Now I feel like going out and grab an Oomph! album.Oomph! ist alle G...

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At a loss

Sometimes I wish I had kids, so then I could just post pictures of them when I don't know what to blog about. And people would just be awed by their beauty and that could be it. Of course, if I had kids then I wouldn't have the time or sanity to post regularly. Also there would be the religious and medical questions that would surely accompany a Virgin Birth. So yeah, that's probably not my answer.At some point I'm sure I'll write a post about things I'm grateful for, but right now I'd rather talk about things I want.I want this CD.The music on it sounds absolutely beautiful, and I've loved "Song for a Winter's Night" for years. The cover makes...

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Come away to Sabbath School

Good things about going to church with my niece & nephew rather than going to the Geriatric Singles Ward1. Goldfish crackers2. Cheese twists3. Crayons4. I look reverent and quiet by comparison5. Listening to Savvy pretend to sing "Angels We Have Heard on High" with the rest of the congregations. Cutest. Thing. Ever.Bad things about going to church with little kids (not that these things can't happen in a singles ward--they just happen less frequently)1. Shrieking2. Crying3. Mad dashes for freedom4. Spilling of water bottles all over carpet and clothes5. Sudden stripping off of clothes (theirs, not mine, although that would be quite eventful t...

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Michael Jackson - BenJackson is enduring....

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Haha!

I can't listen to them. Watching them is even worse. I can't stand the power of steel, brotherhood of metal, fight till the last man is devoured by a giant rabbit bljah. - Vika on Hammerfall.The sky was full of funny things that year. There was a rainbow during Hammerfall. I'll never forget that one. We were jumping around in the mud screaming Gay pride. - Vika on Hammerfall and unforeseen manifestations of rainbows.Shockingly enough I never read anything about Cthulhu. - Vika is wasting her life. Sigh.Vika: The most known book is the Year of the Hare. About a guy who's going from a trip with his co-worker. They stop by a forest because... I don't remember why. And he goes into the forest to see what the noises he was hearing were. He found a little bunny and decided he isn't going...

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Yeah, no thanks

I've asked a for book called No One Cares What You Had for Lunch: 100 Ideas for your Blog for Christmas. I'm pretty sure it could change my life forever and take me to new blogging heights. But until I get the real one, here's idea #32:“What are your relationship deal breakers? Some folks are annoyed if a date shows up ten minutes late. Others look for something weightier, like a felony record. Have you ever rejected someone over something that seems insignificant to your friends? Or do you have selective blindness for red flags?”I've thought about this, and some things that I used to think were really important back when I was 19 and expecting to get married at, like, any second, aren't so important now. Or, to hear my Mom tell it, I've lowered my standards.I don't think I've ever rejected...

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Too fast

It's been only 24 hours or so, and I'm missing Jaspas and Ren Hui already.If any of the two happen to log in to see this, have a nice trip at HongKong and Japan respective...

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Starless Aeon - DissectionThe seventh aeon will soon pass as it has been foretoldThe false empires will crumble and all illusions shall be destroyedThe enslavers tremble with fear, soon our stars alignThe forbidden gates begin to open by the power of our forceful signDaath - wisdom of the abyss is the key to the broken starEleven angles pathways of chaos will bring forth our most wrathful godQliphothic forces from beyond will usurp the tree of cosmic liesThe sleeping dragon awakens smelling the elixir of our sacrificeDies Irae Dies Illa Solvet Cosmos In FavillaVocamus Te Aeshma-DivaDies Irae Dies Illa Solvet Cosmos In FavillaVocamus Te Aeshma-DivaThis is the winter of the last aeon, the hungry end is coming soonHarbinger of the day of wrath will eclipse the sun and rape the moonUnfold the...

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scarred for life

I have a little scar on my chin. I'm not sure how visible it is to other people. I usually don't notice it because I'm busy crying in despair over the huge zit that has cropped up somewhere near it.I got this scar the day after Christmas 1990. I was riding my bike to the BX (Base Exchange) to buy the movie Ghost, since I didn't get it for Christmas. Note to Mom and Dad: good call on not buying me such a dumb movie. My gift that year was Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves. Because that was my other favorite movie in 1990. I liked the footage of England, I thought Alan Rickman and Morgan Freeman were cool, and I had a mad hot crush on Christian Slater.England = still beautifulAlan Rickman = still coolMorgan Freeman = still coolChristian Slater = now resembles a rodent. And he has anger management...

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Lament

Warning: You are about to read an entire post about being extremely nihilistic towards school and life. If you happen to have a low threshold level towards rants, I duly advise you to click on the cute little "Back" button and find other blogs to inludge in. Okay. I assume the readers who reached this line are willing to put themselves into my misanthropic shoes.Caution: This is no-holds barred blogging, I don't intend to offend anyone.Here we go. I see the JC people around me, their seemingly so cheerful profiles of themselves on Friendster, those stack of "full of smiles" pictures of OGL whatever stuff that they have. The immense pride that they possess to the extend of putting whatever that is related to school in every crack and crevice of the profiles.I don't get it. How on earth can...

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Staving off skin cancer

I've been thinking about skin lately--specifically about mine, and how I've pretty much resigned myself to being One Who Is Even Whiter Than English People. I realize this may disappoint my mother, who spends her brief escapes from Alaska trying to get all the UV rays that she possibly can without being hospitalized. And don't get me started on my dad. I can't believe he just went to the doctor and was told he had great skin. That doctor needs to shut his face.I say that tan does not necessarily mean beautiful, especially if you look orange. Or wrinkly. So here is a list of ladies whom I find very attractive and who are also quite pale. I think...

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Bored.

ONEWORDONLY.1. Yourself: Nihilistic2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend: Waiting.3. Your hair: Messy4. Your mother: Over-concerned5. Your Father: Average6. Your Favorite Item: Albums7. Your dream last night: (A sense of) Familiarity.8. Your Favorite drink: Coka Cola9. Your Dream Car: Hearse10. The room you are in: Living hall11. Your Ex: Unreachable12. Your fear: Failure13. What you want to be in 10 years? Geneticist14. Who you hung out with last night? Flourishers!15. What You're Not? Normal.16. Muffins: Chocolate-flavoured.17. One of Your Wish List Items: JERRY NUGGETS18. Time: 8.18pm19. The Last Thing You Did: Kryptonite20. What You Are Wearing: Clothes?21. Your Favorite Weather: Shady22. Your Favorite Book: Dune23. The Last Thing You Ate: Nasi-Lamka24. Your Life: Non-existent25. Your Mood: Void26....

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Seriously, people

So I'm thinking it would be a LOT better if life could just be normal and uncomplicated. There are some things happening with the job and I'm not sure what the outcome will be. And there's another job opening now nearby that would pay me loads more and is at a library that I already love. So, yeah. No idea what I'm meant to do there. I did apply for the nearby job, though. Because who knows.On a happier note, I had a good weekend. I went out with BDG (blind date guy) and had a great time. We accidentally ended up eating at a really, really nice restaurant on Main Street in Park City. It was so cold outside that we sort of ran into the first...

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Casino Royale BeginningDelectable Bond! =X...

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James Bond Mad

I have no idea why I am mad over anything James Bond recently. I have been listening to the soundtracks over and over again for the past hour. I need help.Thanks to Ren Hui...Other than that, I've been trying to get used to rolling a ring. It's totally foreign to me. Need to get accustomed to rings manipulati...

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Shut. Your. Mouth.

This is the other piece of good news for the day.So the blind date called last night and asked me out for this weekend. Yay for dates!ALSO, as soon as I got off the phone, Ed came in with the mail and there was a card addressed to me from Blind Date Guy. It was a thank-you card, thanking me for last weekend and wishing me luck on my job interview.Yeah.Yeah.Who even does that?That was when I said the words of "SHUT. YOUR. MOUTH," which Savannah heard and then kept repeating, which resulted in a Time Out for her. And I felt really bad about that part because she was all standing in the corner crying and stuff.And now Jenny is rethinking her past and saying stuff like, "You know, if I hadn't gotten engaged when I was twelve I bet someone would have eventually written me a card like that. And...

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