way to show good judgment, there

The scale at the gym has decided to stop telling me The Lies. I guess my threats involving Molotov cocktails and such have paid off. Or possibly my new healthy living plan has. Or I've become better at reading numbers. I don't know which it is. But the point is that I am going to celebrate by treating myself to an evening of gastronomic fabulousness this weekend. I'm going to Greg's Restaurant with Foodie, my sisters, and whoever else told Foodie that they want to come. It's run by the culinary arts people at Utah Valley State College, and every week they serve a different 5-course meal. I went once on French Night and spent the entire meal in a half-swoon. This year they're featuring regions in the US, and this weekend it's Pacific Northwest Night, which is exactly what I would have picked...

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Why we don't drop infants on their heads

One reason why I need to find a new ward:The couple who sat in front of me are apparently so much in love that they want to have their torsos fused together, much in the manner of the twins on Grey's Anatomy a few weeks ago. They were hunched over and spooning with their arms around each other like a pair of demented human commas. She was cradled into his chest and their cheeks were pressed together. They sat like that for the entire 45-minute lesson. What was even better was that the guy made three very long and self-important comments during this time. He never once sat up straight, removed his face from his girlfriend's, or stopped rubbing her arm with enough force to leave a rash. I hope they give themselves scoliosis doing that. At one point he did detach his cheek from his girlfriends,...

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Wake up call?

The sensation of being immoblised and the images of falling into endless pits of infinite darkness is still very much fresh in my mind. Well, last night, in the middle of my sleep, I was suddenly jolted into a very queer 'dream', which consisted of me falling into neverending pits of darkness, causing much panic and dizziness in the dream. I wanted to wake myself up from this almost terrifying dream, then I realise I couldn't command a single bit of my muscle. I believe this hapless sense of panic lasted for a minute, I estimated. In this span of time, I recall hearing Kampfar's Lyktemann playing faintly in the background, with that wrathful growls, deepening my fright. Using all my willpower, I finally managed to prye open my eyelids which weight like lead bars. Lyktemann was still heard...

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Weekend highlights/lowlights

Highlights:Book club meeting at Angie's, a local restaurant, to discuss Great Expectations. Great shakes. All the other girls were married but I can't really hold that against them. Since the subject of afterbirth never once came up, I'm feeling good about the group's potential.Met up with Desmama at a book signing. Have I mentioned yet how cool she is? Because it's true. And her babies are so stinking cute.Got a great haircut for a great price. I look fabulous. The red highlights always look pretty dark in the beginning, but the head-wound look should wear off soon enough.Finally read New Moon by Stephenie Meyer. Wanted to shut myself up and...

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Tv

It's really amazing that I didn't have the slightest urge to step out of the house for the entire weekend, not due to the fact that I have common test next week [this I can handle decently well] but the fact that cable TV offers too many shows to watch.Discovery Channel. MTV. HBO. BBC. This goes on in loops.Omg. I think I need a TV repellent, haha, pretty rare right now as most people are addicted being online now. And here I am, going backwards in time, getting hooked to the telly. Lol.Just watched The Island on HBO. Pretty decent sci-fi thriller film. It's the first dystopian film that ends with a happy ending I have ever seen. 1984, A Clockwork Orange, A.I., all ends up really tragic. Ah wells, I think I am about to contradict myself again. Tragic yes, but those in The Island are clones,...

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Did you hear that I'm an athlete now?

I went running yesterday. I have to run on a treadmill because I can't keep an even pace. My body uses this as an excuse to shut down completely so that I end up in a heap on the side of the road somewhere with the cars splashing mud onto my unconscious form. So yes. It's the treadmill for me.Turns out that having an MP3 player back in my life makes all the difference in the world. I'm not cool enough to have an I-Pod. It's this Rio player that I bought a couple of years ago. Some of my ghetto booty dance songs make me smile AND speed up. That, friends, is something.Time ran: 34 minutesCalories burned: 280Facial color: dark purpleTime elapsed before face returned to normal: 3 hoursTime elapsed since last intentional running session: 20 monthsWe're doing this accountability email circle where...

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Cable TV

For the first time in my entire 18 years of life, I will have the luxury of watching Cable TV at my own leisure and home, besides looting shows at friends' place.Yay!MTV, Wildboyz, Movies, Discovery Channel, Tabloid shows, here I come! [gr...

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Finally. Volkerball. Here!

As I walk into Sebawang store at Plaza Singapura like many times before, with a half-given-up mindset, today. Not having much thought of wanting to ask about my request for Rammstein's Volkerball DVD's progress, I walked and looked around aimlessly. When I was about to leave, the familiar staff recognised me due to my incessant enquires about Volkerball and brought me some good news.Volkerball will finally hit Singapore's stores on 1st Feburary 2007! It was officially released on 20th November 2006, people. I have waited in utmost agony and patience and in vain for, let's see, at least 73 days aka 1752 hours aka 105120 minutes aka 6307200 seconds and counting.Such insane devotion, Rammstein, I only think it's fair for you guys to pay Singapore a long-due visit, perhaps bring some instruments...

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Not sure I'm convinced

It is good to be reminded occasionally that the good ones are not, in fact, all taken. Thanks, for the link, Chantel!Otherwise I'd be tempted to slit my wrists sometimes. Saturday night was one of those times. My sister Spitfire's (male) friend got together a group to attend USU's "Poetry and a Beverage" Night. Turns out this is where large groups of people go and kind of listen to performers but mostly play games at their table while flirting and drinking hot chocolate.I drank hot chocolate but can't say I got any flirting in, on account of nearly everyone who turned up was already married. Now, I would never go so far as to say that a seat occupied by a married person is a seat wasted, except I kind of just did say it. Woops.Before all my married friends rise up and kill me, please let...

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Release.

With one step closer to changing my current CCA which caused me much woes and depression recently, I feel very much relieved, ableit the fact that there's now some metalheads in the club. I still feel that the need to struggle through the (often tiring as hell) sessions and having no musical background (except for air drumming, sometimes), it was really quite exhausting. Ah wells, I'll be talking this to the teachers soon, afterwhich, I will be liberated! [smiles] I must say I learnt quite abit about recording/microphone-knowledge/singing/cello/keyboard chords, though. It was an pleasant experience nonetheless, just that I have to prevent myself from getting too tired from school activities.Would be transferring to Mind Games aka Chess-Nerding-Weirdo-Geeking. Where, I heard from YL, they...

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How Horatio ended slavery because he is JUST that hot

Oh my gosh. Oh. Oh my gosh. The fine ladies over at Romancing the Tome have alerted us that the promotional materials for the new Ioan Gruffudd (aka Horatio Hornblower, aka My Boyfriend and Ardent Love Slave) movie are out.Seriously. Go watch the trailer, found here.Please please please let it be good. Please let it will be wonderful and win Best Picture and please let Ioan be wonderful and win Best Actor and then he can come to my house afterwards and I will show him how we librarians celebrate. It involves a heated pot of Nutella, a paintbrush, and some Dewey Decimal numbe...

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Amateur Philosophy Attempt One.

Here are some of the aphorisms I conjured up in the last holidays, decided to post them up here. Enjoy, whether you have the same viewpoint as me or not. =)_______You reaches home and takes a shower. The water washes away all the pretentious qualities of you. Washing away your mask of social pomposity. After that, then you are yourself.Once you awake, noises of trivial chatter and meaningless songs flood you unbridled. Not having any control over them, you are saturated with unwanted inputs, all day and all night. There will be a point you will be overtaken by them – the incessant noises. You no longer can listen to yourself.In times of depression, think of absolutely nothing. Make no connections with anything. Visualize a lone man standing atop a tall pole, with all the emotions wallowing...

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Let's get physical

I worked out at the gym yesterday, because I am now One Who Works Out. Or at least I'm trying to be. Again. Some more. Two years ago back when I was working at BYU I did this Y-Be-Fit program where they get all this information about your health and diet and habits. They put me on a treadmill and had me lift weights and do a sit-and-reach. The sit-and-reach is never my favorite, because I quite likely have the shortest hamstrings in the entire world, including those of premature babies. I can barely go past my knees and people think I'm faking, but I'm not. Yet another reason why little old ladies who crossed the plains back in the days of the pioneers can school me at yoga. The Y-B-Fit girl also put me in the Bod Pod, which is one of those egg-shaped air displacement things to find out your...

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If you don't run you won't win

It's only that line (guess which movie and you win 10 points) that gets me through nights like tonight. If I'd had my way, I would have gone to yoga tonight with my sister, come home and eaten something healthy, and then curled up with a book. But because I am trying to be One Who Makes an Effort, I left work early, rushed home to put on warm clothing, and traveled 40 minutes to some ski lodge for an activity the singles ward was hosting. I didn't ski because I've only done that once and it is really, really cold. This was okay because there were games and movies and food in the lodge for the non-outdoor-venturers.Thing is, I didn't know anyone....

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At last . . . my lu-u-uv has come along

Went to the outlet stores at Park City on Monday with Jaime, Foodie, and Kristee. I showed admirable restraint in the fiscal department, I feel. I had a hard time in Banana Republic, though, because they were having this massive sale where everything was an additional 50% off. Sigh . . . I settled on one pretty shirt. And a pair of $40 exercise pants for $8 at Aeropostale. And a set of 6 beautiful white ramekins for $8. Now I can make creme brulee at my house!The love part happened when Kristee ushered us into the Mikasa outlet and I saw these.It's their Pure Red design and my heart kind of lurched out of my chest when I saw it. And there may...

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Happy 18th Birthday.

So that's it.I'm 18. Bleh, I don't feel anything special. at. all."Happy birthday to me... Happy birthday to me..." Si...

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Just be okay.

Right now, I just want my sister to be safe and out of pain.This is when it sucks being an atheist, you have no Gods to pray to. Ack.I'll be visiting my sister at the hospital tomorrow after school, to make sure she's ''alright'', although I know she will be damn miserable and in great pain. I am, and the whole family, will be with you regardless whatever.I should start a petition regarding idiotic design of the public floors, make them practical and slipping-free, assholes, instead of putting nice tiles and shit. And, ban all lousy slippers as well! Ugh, I have no mood or whatsoever for school or anything right now.The family will be there to share the pain with you, Ling Kai, my dearest talented sister,Ling Xuan14th Jan 2...

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To Reign in Hell (From ANUS.com) As is known to those who take the time to think on such esoteric topics, it is impossible to know the good without the bad. There is a middle state, without judgment, where nothing much matters, but too much lingering here and one discovers a kind of personal entropy: since all decisions are equally of this middle state, there's no point making any decision. Linger in the stream and let it pass. Of course, in that state, there is also none of the reward of accomplishment. Making choices after all defines us. From the simplest satisfactions when we choose to clean our homes or organize our lives in a better fashion, to the greatest choices, when we stand our ground for a principle or ideal, choice makes us feel alive because in it we are exercising the capacity...

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Updates

One week of blogging action absence is the result of an extremely (well, quite, if I choose not to exaggerate) hectic work schedule. School everyday until 4/5pm on on average, plus many other (quite unneeded) CCA obligations and ectera tra. I feel myself seeping away into the cracks and crevices of my skull, my back forever stiff from sitting still in class and my sleep never really sufficient. I wonder to myself, "Is any of these really essential? Everyone is getting so tired and busy, over stuff that seemed trivial. They have the wrong priorities, man." as I descend into the abyss of melancholic misanthropy once again, like always.Amidst all the buzz, I longed for a day where I could awake early fresh from a good night's sleep into a world where I could read my favourite novels whilst breakfast...

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Doing Snoopy dances

Have I mentioned that I love my job? My boss gave me a brochure for this management training thing and said I could go if I wanted. Thing is, it's all the same stuff I just learned in my Management classes. And it's not like I need those classes, because if people act up I just destroy them with my mind powers.But. There is this. It's the Midwinter Symposium on Books for Young Readers, and it'll be held down at BYU next month. And it costs half of what that other thing would have been. I've wanted to go ever since I saw the lineup of speakers, but I was a poor unemployed person at that time and didn't have cash for the registration fee.Stephenie Meyer will be there.And Joan Bauer.And Rosemary Wells.Did I mention Stephenie Meyer?That's the bit that has me dancing in my chair. My brother coolboy...

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Was sloth part of your cover, too?

Remember how I'm supposed to be getting in shape? This week has been "Free Week" at the local rec center, so I've been to two of their yoga classes and am going to another one tonight.Monday night's class was pretty tame. I'm used to doing Power Yoga, which is more intense and lasts longer. This didn't feel like quite as much work. It was still nice, though. The next morning they had a class that's half Yoga and half Pilates. When I showed up I was the only person in the room under the age of 45. Most of the other class members were little old ladies.My thought: "Aw, crap. This one will probably be really toned down, too. Dangit."Yeah. I should really stop thinking things. Those sweet little old ladies kicked my trash and then spat on my remains. While laughing and lifting cars with one hand.By...

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Because normal is too much to ask

So I went to my new ward on Sunday. Brief points of interest:At one point during a lesson while mentioning someone who grew up on a farm, the girl teaching said, "Now, I'm sure most of us here grew up on farms." I refrained from bringing out an "Excuse me?" accompanied by the Eyebrow of Death.I felt a bit overdressed because I wasn't wearing fleece. Asked my sister Spitfire if that's just a Logan thing and she shook her head sorrowfully. "No," she whispered, "That's just your ward. Your ward is kind of the homely one."And now the longer point of interest:When I walked in the building there was a short blond guy in front of me who proceeded to turn around and stare and my roommate and me several times, while walking. I wondered if he was looking for someone or if he was just stunned by our...

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Pretty much the best book ever

So it turns out that my new library is very good about ordering books that people request. Which is nice. It's just too bad that people don't have better taste.I processed a new paperback today that had been requested by a male patron. It’s about a Navajo FBI agent who, according to the back jacket blurb, is “strong-willed, dynamic, a born hunter.” The book is entitled Black Mesa and is part of the American Heroes: Against All Odds series.I went to write my cool librarian information on the title page and saw this tantalizing intro:His kiss was soft at first, neither urging nor coaxing. Her heart leapt to life and a slow tendril of heat began to wind its way through her. . . .With a groan, he pulled her even closer. His mouth smothered hers, a raw urgency tugging at his restraint. She moaned...

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Birthdays.

Hereby wishing a very Happy 38th Birthday to the God of Fuck himself, Marilyn Manson! Much as I am unable to say it to you personally, with more sincerity (not that I have none), I hope you could feel the devotion from your fans worldwide and continue your wondrous art to futhur inspire us to greater heights. Your success has driven me to emulate it in every way possible.Secondly, also a birthday well-wishing to Jordan Lapping, have a good 15th birthday, The One Who Is Insane With Jackson 5! =)Speaking of unrelated matters, after 3 days of being a JC2 student has gave me some sort of sneak peek of what is about to come my way. I must say I am even more determined to get the hell out of SRJC. One more bloody fucking year, assholes, then I'll be out! And never back!2 days ago, I was battling...

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I get my own parking space, people

So it's my second day of work and I'm still alive. They're actually making it a pretty mellow adjustment, which is really nice. Everyone seems pretty cool and is happy to have the extra body. Yesterday I got to:recommend books for a 14-yr-old non-reader boy (I recommended Ender's Game and Eragon)help some 10-yr-old boys find books for their State Reports--the funny part is I don't know where everything is yet so they followed me around like ducklings as I roamed the libraryCheck out Season One of The Office and watch it with my sisterRead completely vague and obfuscatory pamphlets about health care plans which made me want to drive a pencil into my eyeI plan to take some pictures of Logan and get them posted up here. Just so you know what I'm dealing with, though, let me tell you that a large...

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Funny #2!

Thanks Vika for this! Which made my week for sure.There's a zoophilist, a necrophilia and a masochist sitting on a wall and a cat walks by. The zoophilist says: Oh, how I want to fuck that cat. Then the necrophilia says, after you fuck her, I'll kill her and fuck her. And the masochist goes: Meow.Infinite "hahaha"s.[still laughi...

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Ridiculously funny.

In 2007, lingnemesis resolves to...Apply for a new isolation.Give up reading.Go to the weird things every month.Pay for my dirty jokes on time.Find a new penspinning..Learn to play the death.Get your own New Year's Resolutions: I'm very amused by this. LJ pwns Blogger in everyway possib...

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Moving day

Today I have English chocolate.Remember WR? He flew out here for Christmas to see Goldilocks, on account of they're dating. Hah! Betchall never saw THAT one coming! And now I finally get to Out them. Mwah-hah-hahahah.Anyway, he emailed to ask if there was anything I wanted from the Motherland, which, hi, of course there was. I didn't get to meet up with them while he was here on account of I'm a scatterbrained flake who kept getting sick, but last night I went over to the lovely Goldie's and picked up a bag which contained:my pretty soft blue sweater from H&M that I left behind without realizing how much I was going to miss it latera big...

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Happy 2007

I'm not going to make any specific set-in-stone-type resolutions, because I always fail at them. But there are some things I want to be working on.1. I want to excercise. Much as I dislike exertion and the accompanying sweat and purple-facedness, I feel better when I'm in somewhat in shape. Also, I have been blessed with good health and a body that works, so I'm probably bringing bad karma on myself by not actively taking better care of it.2. I want to eat better. I admire people like Lady J who use all kinds of local produce and my sister who makes nearly everything from scratch. Now that I'm going to be in my own place without the crazy traveling work schedule I used to have, there's really no excuse for me to be eating rubbish all the time like a college student. It turns out that my soon-to-be...

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