Happy Halloween

Tonight my Mom is making homemade donuts and we're having friends over. Actually, I'm inviting one friend. The rest are Mom and Dad's. I'm hoping lots of people bail or get caught in a snowdrift so that I can eat all the donuts. Will take pictures!We're prepared for the trick-or-treaters, but they'll have to be a hardy lot since there is snow on the ground and it's supposed to be really cold tonight. On Sunday it dumped 8 inches during the 2 hours we were in church. Madness. There is a ward trunk-or-treat and Halloween carnival at the church tonight, but the word on the street is that the Young Women (ages 12-18) aren't going to be helping out...

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Truth. The Absolute Truth.

Was bored, thus googled stuff on Marilyn Manson and Twiggy Ramirez, found this lines that I wanted to share with you, especially those bigotted ignorant people that included many parents.[quote] The bottom line is that Marilyn Manson are not infecting the children, they are informing them. The world is not a place conducive to naiveté. "Well, that's why parents get so angry at bands like us because we give away the big secret. You go and raise a child and you don't want them to know the truth, so you go and hide them and shelter from everything instead of helping them." [/quote]Think about it...

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I love it when things are all about me

This last weekend was our stake conference, and Dad came home from the priesthood leadership session on Saturday afternoon with news. The word from Salt Lake is that this year one of the main focuses for the Church is going to be the Young Single Adults. Specifically it's going to be about finding them, re-activating them, and retaining them. The numbers say that of all the members aged 18-30 only about 30% are active. It's the most at-risk age bracket in the Church.This, to me, makes sense. It's easy to fall through the cracks when you're away from home for the first time and trying to figure things out. Plus that's just a generally turbulent time--we've got school and jobs and relationships and growing up and all kinds of stuff. And it's likely the most nomadic time we'll ever have. With...

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Emperor - Inno A Satana (Wacken Open Air 2006)Pure black gold. Period....

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閃靈登基十年演唱會_悲命格Breath-taking. They have successfully reinvented the er-hu. Chinese pride! Hope for Asia's metal scene!...

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Marilyn Manson SpeechAbsolutely intelligent. I second him totally....

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One more reason to miss England

Only I never saw this one coming.While in England I ran out of deoderant and went to Wilkinson to buy more. From what I can tell, the UK is big on roll-ons, whereas here in the US we go for the sticks. After much deliberation I chose Palmolive Citrus Fresh Roll-On with Aloe Vera. It was funny to be buying deoderant from Palmolive, since I associate them with dish soap.Anyway, I loved it. It smelled great, it never gave me marks on my clothes, it worked really well, loved it. English friends, you should really try this stuff. It's fab.Anyway, I just ran out. It was a sad day. I had to go to Wammart to get more but knew I would not be able to...

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Disgusted

I am getting increasingly disgusted at the random pimping flourish videos up on Youtube...Ugh.Anyhow, on a similar note, this week marks 2 years of commitment into flourishing. =D Time flies. I have successfully spent my youth on cards, and I like it! =)The other long-term dedication passion would be metal music of course. It's going into its 6th year of listening. 6 is a nice number. H...

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Yay, it's snowing!

We only have an inch or so, though, so it isn't a true Alaska snowfall. That's the kind that dumps one foot of snow each hour and then steals your car and calls you fat. But it's beautiful. Last night I watched the snow fall under the street lights, which always makes me start humming Christmas music. And it's a good thing I'm leaving before the bliss can wear off.On the way home from doing errands, we saw our first snow-related accident of the year. Someone lost control on a completely flat stretch of road in our neighborhood, went off the road, and plowed straight through someone's back fence. We didn't see the accident, we just saw the tread-marks...

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This is going to be interesting.

I shall be a Teamasek Poly BioTech Student tomorrow from 11 am to 4pm! =D In other words, I am crashing! Wheee!This is going to be fun!Can't wait,LingNemes...

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Billy_Gilman_-_OklahomaIsn't that awww-inducing?...

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School's out.

School's OUT!!! However, queer enough, I ain't feeling too happy or anything emotionally strong.Ack, this is weird. Am I starting to like this simple blogskin? It looks clean and normal for the first time of its lifespan.Ah wells, I am sleepy in such a nice afternoon of PSI level 11, no way. I need to get out!...

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Compulsion, conshmulsion

I prefer to think of it as a keen interest. The notjob is going pretty well. The book sale is in a couple of weeks and my understanding is that I will be praying for sweet sweet death at the end of it. Also that people will try to steal books and will whine about the prices. Because they deserve to be smacked with a bookshelf.The rule is that we can take books home to read as long as we bring them back before the sale. If we decide to buy said books, we can just give our supervisor the money. What I've noticed is that each day I'm coming home with a bigger and bigger stack of books. I did a round-up this morning and here's what I found:The Harry...

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Don't be mistaken

Don't be mistaken that yours truly has lost all of her desires to adorn her journal with gothic (as laypeople would say) imagery and darkness. For I am, or rather, my blog is currently undergoing a revamp (yet again) hiatus. Whilst I immerse myself in the grimest of all grim task of searching or attempting to create a decent blogskin that would satisfy my insatisfiable lust for picturesque perfection.Behold the new blogskin, people.Ah crap, I forgot to save my list of links. Now I have to put myself in utmost torture of consolidating all of them from their graves. Bleh.In the meantime, bear with this spartan blogskin.Your Relentless Nemesis of All Things Dark,LingNemesis25th October 06...

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2S03

I got promoted to JC2 with a overall score of 47 upon 80, clinching a second place in my class which would be called 2S03 from tomorrow onwards. Now I am confused of my path once again. Ugh.Bleh. Will update more when I feel more alive. Laters, motherfucke...

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Good things about fall

1. Autumn leaves, until a nice windstorm blows them all away in the middle of the night and suddenly you're living in a barren wasteland that seeks to crush and destroy you. I've heard.2. Fabulous brown shoes made by the good people at Mudd. They're to go with my absolutely darling brown knee-length skirt with really cute pleats and trimming at the bottom. The best part is that I found it at Wal-Mart (or Wammart as it is generally known). Had no idea they sold cute clothes there. Way to be, Wammart.3. Hallowe'en decorations in people's houses and yards. My mom even has a Halloween tree. Some of the neighbors have strings of pumpkin lights going...

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NTU Student survey - Funny commentsHAHAHAHA! IM...

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Updates

Alright, today's Hari Raya, and it's a public holiday. How wonderful, isn't it? But I question myself, "Why am I indoors on a day like this?!" Especially when the haze has been eradicated, at long last, or at least, temporarily. I need to get out... Ugh.On other things, I have been reading Friedrich Nieztsche's Ecce Homo, and I must comment that he's really a great thinker, considering he's from the pro-conservative era where thoughtcrime could get you tied up on a stick and burnt condemned as a heretic. Applaud, Herr Nieztsche.Let me be a generous entity and provide you with an excerpt: "If I wage war on Christianity I have a right to do so, because I have never experienced anything disagreeable or frustrating from that direction - the most serious Christians have always been well disposed...

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Singleton Svithe

Daltongirl, Sakhmet, and Cicada are my Circle of Truth. We've been sending each other group emails for years. They're the ones I tell my absolute most embarassing/pathetic/paranoid stories to. We get excited over little triumphs and big ones, such as Daltongirl's victories in parenting and yard-saling, Sakhmet's grad-school change-the-world coups, Cicada's fab new job which pays her to exercise and be creative, and my not getting trampled by moose yet.A few weeks ago Cicada started a discussion of how we stay positive (or don't) when it comes to being single and having no romantic prospects and facing a lifetime of dried-up spinsterhood. Daltongirl isn't single anymore, but she was for a long time--and a single mother at that. She and Sakhmet both had wise things to say. Here was my contribution...

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Speed of PainBreath-taking....

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One less thing to feel guilty about

A little while back Daltongirl wrote an excellent post about homelessness in which she drew on her experiences as One Who Serves the Homeless Community. So if you want to read something eloquent and thought-provoking and faith-in-humanity-inspiring, go read that. If you don't, you can read my post about homelessness, which follows below.Anchorage has homeless people. I think it would be a very bad thing to be homeless in Anchorage because of how cold it gets in the winter. A few people freeze to death every year.(And before the Alaskans can grab their pitchforks, I'm sure they have homeless people freezing to death in Minneapolis and Boston and all those other places that are in fact colder than Alaska. I get that. So you can just settle. And this is my blog anyway. And I'm leaving. Neener.)When...

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LingNemesis --[noun]:A lewd street performer'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.comOh my. It hit it on the street performer part, but "lewd"? ...

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Under construction

This might look messy for a little bit. Just pretend like nothing is ami...

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I COULD NOT WAIT ONE SECOND LONGER! VöLKERBALL! Wheee!That artwork has made my week! Rammstein never fails to amaze me. [I have stopped breathing now, too excited]The whole nimes concert:Reise ReiseLinks 2 3 4Keine LustFeuer FreiAsche zu AscheMorgensternMein TeilStein um SteinLosdu Riechst So GutBenzinDu HastSehnsuchtAmerikaRammsteinSonneIch WillOhne DichStripped5 songs from london:SonneRein RausMoskauand 2 still unknown3 songs from kangawaMein TeilDu hastSonneAHHH! I cannot wa...

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My mother kisses me with that mouth?

This morning my mom and I drove into Anchorage together. She drops me off at my notjob on her way to her actualjob. She asked me how the notjob was going and said that if she lived in Anchorage she would consider volunteering there as well.Me: You could volunteer at the Eagle River branch, though.Mom: Chuh. I'd have to get immunized before I could volunteer there.On the way home we had this exchange after the big truck in front of us took its sweet time getting out of intersection, leaving us trailing behind as an easy target for other large assault vehicles or animals.Mom: [general expressions of annoyance at the slow person in front of us]Me: He has a handicapped sticker.Mom: Oh, whatever. Just about anyone can get one of those things now. If he were really handicapped he would be driving...

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Thornography

Despite much talk accusing the selling out of Suffolk's metal band, Cradle of Filth, I have decided to remain a filthest Order of The Dragon devotee, much to my reputation of Cradle of Filth Whore, and gotten myself their latest opus to date, Thornography.Though lacking in vocal prowess on the part of Count Dani and the eye-pleasing display of wordplay, I must say I ain't *too* disappointed with this latest installment. Off the 12 tracks this ritual offers, I am utmostly satisfied with Tonight in Flames, Libertina Grimm, The Bryonic Man, Cetemetry and Sundown, and Under Huntress Moon. And I am equally, or not more, disgusted at their rendition...

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Good News

In my parents' ward the dear Relief Society sisters do this thing called "good news" along with the announcements and such before the lesson starts. Anyone who has good news is invited to share it, and so far it's been stuff like "my son got his mission call" or "my daughter is 2 weeks pregnant and I'm going to start announcing it to the world NOW because I just can't hold it" or "I went one more week without killing my teenager" (not that anyone has actually said that last one, but I know they're thinking it.)I had some good news myself but chose not to share it. My good news is this:I'm getting out of here!Thing is, people in Alaska are really sensitive about their state. And when someone doesn't want to live here they kind of take it personally. It starts like this:Alaskan: So, are you...

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Aww.

I was looking at a couple of odd looking CDs on my desk a couple of minutes ago, then bored me decided to pop them into the laptop to see what's inside. I was overwhelmed with surprise! My old collection of songs!I feel warm and fuzzy all over now. I listen to them, with a smile on my face, thinking how fast time has past. Jesus! I was already listening to Rammstein 5 years ago, when I was 12, year 2001! I am so amazed at myself! Haha.I realised I have superb taste in music ever since I was young. There's no chinese pop crap at all. I am proud of myself. =DTime flies, too fast,Ling15th O...

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Don Vito MontageHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!...

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Slayer.

There. A music milestone has just taken place. Slayer has officially invaded and desecrated Singapore's soil. The metal scene in Singapore never looked so promising. I feel so blessed by their presence in Singapore even though, to my shame, I didn't attend their performance. Slayer, you had made Singapore a better place to be in. Not forgetting the loyal metalheads all around Singapore as well. Such moumental happenings only increased my pride level of being a metalhead. 13th October, a date to be remembered.It's really not easy for metalheads to stay together in such a place so devoid of metal as a community. Plus, all the shit being thrown at us and the bands we adore so much by the media and common folksman belief and ignorance, it's really a tough task for us, mere headbangers.You must...

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So how important ARE things like principles, exactly?

One of the debates going on in the NextGen librarian world concerns the starting salaries of entry-level librarians. Lots of them are very low compared to other jobs that require graduate degrees. So here's the argument.Side A says that new librarians need to stop accepting jobs that pay less than $40,000 a year, and then the Powers That Be will have to start raising salaries if they want to hire anyone.Side B says that's all very noble and good, but new librarians have student loans to pay and families to feed, so they don't have the luxury of holding out for more. They're having to compete hard for the crappy jobs as it is.Then we have me. I've been looking (albeit halfheartedly) for library jobs for the past couple of months. Most of what I'm seeing is in the 30K range--and some of these...

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These things happen to me because I am a winner

This morning I woke up after both my parents left for work. Because they have jobs and I don't.I could hear the dog barking persistently in my garage, which killed the sleeping-in buzz. Finally I staggered out of bed and let her in, which made her ever so happy and loving and "Oh my gosh you're just my most favorite person in the world even though I wouldn't have anything to do with you last night when you wanted to play!"On the kitchen counter I saw a loaf of banana bread that a neighbor brought over last night. It was about half gone so I cut a couple of slices and ate them for breakfast. While I ate I got on the computer and my dad IMed me.Dad:...

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I wanna get to ya billy gilmanI cannot be watching this. Never in my entire headbanging life. But, in reality, I am. Geez. The wires are out of place in my body....

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Rap!

Due to much unforeseen circumstances, I dug up my old rap songs and became very amazed at myself being able to rap along after 4 years absence from rap! 0.0I could pull this off! It's continous rapping in 3 minutes!Eminem - Rabbit RunSome days I just wanna up and call it quits,I feel like I’m surrounded by a wall of bricks,Everytime I go to get up I just fall in piss,My life’s like one great big ball of shit,If I could just put it all in all I spit,Instead I always try to swallow it,Instead of staring at this wall and shit,While I sit writers block sick of all this shit,Cant call it shit, all I know is I’m about to hit the wall,If I have to see another one of mom’s alchaholic fits,This is it, last straw, thats all, thats it,I ain’t dealing with another fucking politic,I’m like a stewin bubble...

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Yes!

Extracted from Cradleoffilth.com,18.What are your tour plans for next year?What aren't our tour plans for next year? That would be easier to answer. Put it this way we are going to be doing a great deal of travelling both here in Europe and also over in the States. January sees the beginning of an American and Canadian tour, then it's Europe again in Spring with another US tour over the Summer, hopefully with another Ozzfest or something at least similar. And in-between there's Japan and Australia with an eye to playing Malaysia, India and South Africa on the way. Euphoria is a serious understateme...

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Things I am learning at my NotJob

As mentioned previously, I've been going in to the main library in Anchorage to volunteer a couple times a week. They have me working on organizing books for the upcoming book sale. I have impressed them so much with my skills that I've been promoted from being an assistant volunteer in the nonfiction section to She Who Rules over Fiction. I will also be managing about 10 cadets from a local military school when it comes time to set up for what is gearing up to be a massive book sale. I am told the cadets will call me ma'am. I approve of this.Anyway. Fun tidbits from the Dungeon (for that is what the underground room with all the books is called):First...

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=(

Sometimes, I really wished I could be exposed to more things at a younger age, then perhaps I could be much more competent than I am now.I look at all the stars and people who have made it, and I wish I could go back in time and given the chance to know and learn whatever I needed.Just to rant a little here, since it's my blog,I wanted to pick up drumming since I was 13, but it's clearly impossible now.I wanted to attend German language classes, but the parents said they are impractical.I wanted to form a metal band and immerse myself in the scene, but the parents' discriminatory thoughts crushed them all.I wanted to know of such a thing called 'philosophy' earlier.I wanted to learn more magic, but magic is expensive. [thus resorted to flourishes]I wanted an environment that had intellectual...

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AWESOME

IT FEELS JUST BLOODY FUCKING AWESOME TO HEAR METAL ON SINGAPORE NATIONAL RADIO.SLAYER, INVADE THIS ISLAND ON FRIDAY 13TH! HELL AWAITS!Ok, calm down, miss Metalhead. Breathe. Breathe.BUT IT'S JUST FUCKING AWESOME!AHHH, I AM DYING. FROM HAPPINESS.You could see my passion for metal now, motherfucke...

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Like Sands through the Hourglass

I'm possibly starting to lose it. It's possible. Most of the pretty autumn leaves have now blown off the trees and all I see before me is dark, dark despair. But to keep my mind off that I will write about the things I have been enjoying lately.These are in no particular order, but let's start on the hygiene front. This way maybe I will be better about remembering to attend to such things rather than staying in bed muttering words like "There's no point, anyway . . . ":I love me some Cetaphil. I use the cleanser and the moisturizer. My skin loves them too. With their help I have mostly managed to dodge the "moving to a new climate" bullet that...

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Realisation

I realised all successful metal musicians have troubled childhood. So do I! Await for my rise, motherfuckers?Ha ha ha!You have just read utter bolloc...

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One Voice

How dangerous can a metalhead get when she goes smiling whilst listening to a country album that focuses on a better future based on acceptance? Probably as dangerous as a choirboy. In other, simpler terms, I am in love with Billy Gilman's One Voice as much I am in love with Manson swinging his lunchbox. =D I really liked Till I can make it on own, Oklahoma, There's a Hero and I wanna get to Ya. Ren hui, you have good taste! Hah! Anyway, exams are over now and it doesn't make much difference. *thanks to the haze* Going out seems like a grim task. So I am here, watching Viva La Bam episodes all day long at EuuTube and flourishing. Speaking of Viva La Bam, Don Vito has got to be the worst speaker of this century. To let you have a taste of what he sounds like, here's an excerpt, "Gimme a beer...

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Marilyn Manson - great big white worldI am in love....

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DRUGS!!!Oh my lovely. I am really in love. SWOON!...

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antichrist superstar (live)I saw God....

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The beautiful people (gente hermosa)Oh My. I am mesmerized....

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I wanna be a supermodel

Here are the promised pics from the bowling-alley shoot. I liked the shirt, even if it did smell like cigarette smoke. The pants . . . I will probably not be wearing them again so much at all.This is me and the Eyebrow of Death. And the shiny green Shoes of the Dance.This is me possibly looking as though I have a flat bum and terrible posture. Only that's the magic of camera wizardry, because I have neither of those things, okay? My bum is cute. I do, however, have a stubby pinky, and even Ed's magic could not hide that.You can see more of his photography, which I think is pretty much the best ever, at his website. If you can look at that first...

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Been a while

The exams are finally almost over now, with only Ekonmiks left to knoquer. ^^ I shan't rant about how I think I have fared in the various papers, cause that's plain sleep-inducing.Anyway, in the past days, I have; in brevity,- a damn irritating cough as my throat is being desecrated by unlimited supply of phelgm.- became a fish, as I got frozen in the examination hall and subsequently got thawed when I get out.- lost my very last bit of sanity, as usual.- became excessively obsessed over Marilyn Manson, watching each and every interview videos on Euutube possible.- got amused by a comment made my Twiggy Ramirez that goes, "I wanna meet Eddie of Iron Maiden." [I just love insane people!]- wrote for 6 hours straight.- thought that I might die.- thought that I could choose my parents, I'd choose...

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It has been lovely knowing you

Meet my doom.It approache...

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I think someone should buy me this

Or this:Aren't they cool? They're stickers that you put on your laptop. I would very sassy and cool with those things, I think. To be precise, I think Dell should buy me one. Or both. I deserve both. I've mailed my laptop in for them to replace the hard drive. So now I am laptopless and feel so very naked and cold and alone.Y'all remember the Troubles I'd been having with it? Well a couple of weeks before the dissertation was due, I realized that the thing was actually kind of behaving. It hadn't given me any blue-screen errors or hissed at me or stolen my things while I slept. I decided that this was probably Heavenly Father's way of blessing...

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