Here is a list that I will come back to so I can remember why that is not a good idea. It turns out I don't do well when I'm home alone trying to work. For one thing, I'm less productive--I already know that. I've been really good about heading up to the computer lab in the mornings and staying all day, but for the last two days I stayed home to do transcription work and phone interviews. Turns out decreased productivity is the least of my worries.
The weather has been beautiful, but I only went outside once to water Landlady J's plants, which are dying anyway because all plants hate me. Also to feed her cat, which is back to doing that meowing thing that I know it does just to annoy me.
My entire food intake yesterday consisted of two slices of pizza, a can of rice pudding with hot chocolate mix sprinkled on top, and yogurt, because I have no groceries. Last night I dreamed that I was at a buffet with all kinds of breads and cakes. Was so sad when I woke up and did not have those things.
I realized at one point that I didn't know when I'd brushed my teeth last.
I took a nap at 6pm.
I keep going through my desk and possessions, looking for things I can throw away, give away, or recycle so I won't have to pack them. Yesterday I got rid of a bunch of class notes and magazine articles. This morning it was a now-empty bottle of Bath & Body Works' Coconut Lime Verbena body cream and a not-at-all-empty bottle of Triaz, a nasty face wash my dermatologist gave me. This is absolutely a displacement/procrastination activity, and yet I'm unable to stop.
I didn't shower before going out dancing last night but instead used the shower head to get my hair wet enough to style it. I did brush my teeth though. Finally.
So yes. That is no good. This morning I woke up and had two slices of wheat toast and a carton of yogurt. And I showered. And I'm in the computer lab now, where there are lights and sounds and other clean people. Also I'm going to walk to the grocery store and/or market to buy fresh fruits.
Things are looking up!
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